same old, same old

have you ever had that feeling when you're literally this close to having something you've really wanted, and then something else just pushes you back to where you were before? i've felt it so many times last week. no, last month. i guess something good could come out of it, like maybe it just reminds you that you can't always have what you want, or that you have to try harder to get what you want, but at the same time, i just need a break. I'm spoiled, i admit it. sometimes i take things for granted and sometimes i don't appreciate what I have, and that becomes a problem. you know that quote, "Live as if you'll die tomorrow..." That's exactly what i'm doing. I'm happy, living life day to day, trying to make the most of my time. and even though I think that i'm appreciating everything, at the end of the day, I realize that i'm just taking things for granted, like always. But that's it, you know ... i should stop looking back.